Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Start a band and run off
Cavell, you just killed off everything you ever believed in. you're always doing stupid things. ever since you were a kid. what ever made you think you were different? just kill off everything you've ever known. people thought the better of you, you just threw it back into their faces. Cavell, you've brought hurt upon yourself. blame yourself, don't blame others. how can you ever see the future. you can't look beyond your 16 year old self. maybe it's time to move on and grow up.
Posted by cAvEll at 1:27 AM
Secrets that's brought down with me
No one will ever see this post. maybe it's just me. maybe it's you. "why did you do that" how am I supposed to react? I don't even know what you're talking about. you shut me up, throw me away and now people are bugging me. It's been 2 years, I haven't changed a bit. It's so depressing. someone you care so deeply for just throws you out and away from their lives. you have no idea who to turn to. But God, if you're seeing this, i really can't do it anymore. everytime it gets harder and harder, more difficult. It's like my whole 2 years have been running in circles, hitting the same things all over. I am feeling so much pain, so much depression, i can't keep my head up. no one hears me, no one sees me. You have to know, my heart had lost its will to love. You were always there. But you're gone and I have to move on.. how? why? I want you back so badly but i have to pull it all away. I'm feeling empty.. all over again.. it hurts so bad. no self pity, just lots of hurt. not expecting miracles anymore......
Posted by cAvEll at 12:48 AM