Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Start a band and run off
Cavell, you just killed off everything you ever believed in. you're always doing stupid things. ever since you were a kid. what ever made you think you were different? just kill off everything you've ever known. people thought the better of you, you just threw it back into their faces. Cavell, you've brought hurt upon yourself. blame yourself, don't blame others. how can you ever see the future. you can't look beyond your 16 year old self. maybe it's time to move on and grow up.
Posted by cAvEll at 1:27 AM
Secrets that's brought down with me
No one will ever see this post. maybe it's just me. maybe it's you. "why did you do that" how am I supposed to react? I don't even know what you're talking about. you shut me up, throw me away and now people are bugging me. It's been 2 years, I haven't changed a bit. It's so depressing. someone you care so deeply for just throws you out and away from their lives. you have no idea who to turn to. But God, if you're seeing this, i really can't do it anymore. everytime it gets harder and harder, more difficult. It's like my whole 2 years have been running in circles, hitting the same things all over. I am feeling so much pain, so much depression, i can't keep my head up. no one hears me, no one sees me. You have to know, my heart had lost its will to love. You were always there. But you're gone and I have to move on.. how? why? I want you back so badly but i have to pull it all away. I'm feeling empty.. all over again.. it hurts so bad. no self pity, just lots of hurt. not expecting miracles anymore......
Posted by cAvEll at 12:48 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Okonkwo: E-learning Assignment!
Okonkwo is my name. I'm known throughout all nine villages for throwing the unbeaten wrestler for seven years, Amalinze the Cat. He was called the Cat as his back never seemed to touch the ground. My fight with him was a great one, possibly the greatest ever since the founder of my village engaged a spirit of the wild for seven days and nights, as the elders have said. In the last twenty years ever since that fight, my fame was growing and growing like a bushfire. My looks was probably one of the most distinct features about me. People have commented that my bushy eyebrows and wide nose give me a very severe look. People have also commented on the way I walk. They say i seem to walk on springs and like I would pounce on people. And I have to admit, I do that quite often. I speak with a slight stammer and I would get frustrated and lose my temper when I cant get my words out quick enough. I believe that a man should be able to support his family and keep control of them. I know that my wives and children live in fear of me. I only fear failre and weakness. I'm not a cruel man. I do not want to be a man with no title. Since young I have never had the oppurtunity to get my own farm and titles as my father was a man without anything to his name. However, people do not judge others by their father's works rather by the person's own works.
Posted by cAvEll at 2:05 PM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
15th baaaaabe!
Heeeey! i'm officially fifteen today(: yeaaah! hahaha. thanks to everyone who wished me(: weeell, charlene called me at twelve and screamed at me and the rest either wished me in school, facebook, training or they came to my house. hahaha. like my church peeps xD yeah. thanks everyone(: I'M FREAKING 15 TODAY! and thanks to those who stayed up to wish me(: hahaha awesome people
Posted by cAvEll at 9:20 PM
Monday, February 15, 2010
BOO YEAAAAAH
HEEEEEEEEEEY! okay i'm back from shopping xD hehehe. i got 6 new shirts, 2 new jeans, 1 vest and a new pair of shoes. As they say, new year, new clothes xD hahaha. and i got a new book. soooo, I'm feeling happy. hahaha. Anyway, just now, Charlene the Hippo scolded me cuz i didnt reply her sms. I'M IN MALAYSIA!! WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO D; hahaha. joking. I saw some korean stuff just now, and the girls are hooooooot. hahaha. shush. dont tell some people. they'll laugh at mee.. i'll see what happens to you peeps when i get back (:
Posted by cAvEll at 1:53 AM
Is this the end?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT(: hahaha. anyway... before 15th of Feb, i had an arguement with my dad. ah fuck him. he got pissed cuz i didnt lend him my headphones. so he took my psp and threw it on the floor. i got pissed and we started fighting. like literally... then i stopped cuz i couldnt fucking take this shit anymore. he took it for weakness and started scolding me like some fucking dog. then i just sat there, plotting my revenge. and my mum allowed me to use com... but she 's also a bitch. she agreed with my dad i shouldnt be fucking here. then she came to me and tried to comfort me. what a two sided bitch... i cant trust anyone now. only uncle billy. but who knows? maybe i might piss him off one day and he'll never talk to me again.
Posted by cAvEll at 1:42 AM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Oh gosh... Haven't blogged in like forever
HEY ALL!! Whazzup? i decided to blog today cuz i have nothing to do nowadays. i'm in Malaysia and IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY!! i was supposed to celebrate with someone^^ but ít's gonna be hard cuz i'm in Malaysia. Yann Ting's supposedly here... Hmm.. Ah well, sec 3 has been kinda strange for me lately. mainly cuz my teacher's weird... hahaha. but i love my class. Full of retards xD hahaha. Anyway, You want me to buy anything. message me (:
Posted by cAvEll at 6:26 PM